Farewell My Love


The following poem is dedicated in memorial to the only man I have ever loved, Ajay Mody (Ajaytao). He had a gentle strength that he generously shared with all. I loved him with my entire being and I will miss him with my entire being but I know I am blessed beyond measure for having found him against all odds and finding pure love. My darling prince died Sunday August 10, 2014 after a long battle with illness. Although, my heart is breaking I must be grateful for having known him because he taught me what it meant to love and be loved purely. You will never be forgotten, Ajay, for you reside in my heart forevermore.

 

I did not know my last, “I love you”, would
be the last one you would ever hear.
I did not know our last conversation,
would be our final one.
I did not know the last
times our souls touched
would be the final
embrace.

You helped me see slices
of paradise while
walking through
this dark,
broken
world.

You taught me the
full depth of love
You healed my
broken heart.
Your soul
called to
mine.

Your love, a surprise
Bliss was tangible.
Happiness,
possible.

You were my inspiration
You held me in your
gentle, strong embrace.
Whispered words
of love directly
to my
soul.

You loved me,
just as I am.
Revealing how
deeply God must
love me that he gave
me someone like you.
To love and to be loved
with an intensity
brighter than
the sun.

A Broken heart
remains aching as
never before. How
can I say good-bye
to he who opened
my spirit to feel
love? He who
walked through
the walls I had
carefully built
to protect my
heart?

God beckoned you
home. A call you
could not refuse.
In paradise you
reside without pain,
tears, or heartache so
I must rejoice for you
and that I joyfully
do but I miss you
my darling
love.

Farewell, my sweet,
sweet prince. My
heart and spirit
hold your
memory
now and
forevermore.

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45 thoughts on “Farewell My Love

    • Thank you Diane. I never knew a heart could love so profoundly; therefore, I never knew it could be shattered so completely. My heart, soul, and body have been broken time and again until I am a mere fragment of a human being but nothing I have ever gone through has prepared me to say good bye to my Soul Mate.

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    • Ajay was the kindest, gentlest man I have ever had the privilege of knowing. His love for his family and friends was so fierce and so gentle that it brought tears to my eyes when he spoke of them. He touched so many people on a profound level and I cannot believe I have been honored to be counted among them. He will dwell in my heart forevermore and my soul will ache until we re reunited.

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  1. Tina, I lost the love of my life on April 5th unexpectedly..I have been trying to recover from his absence, I feel your loss so deeply. This is a beautiful and remarkable tribute that I am sure he would have been so very moved by. May you find peace.

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  2. Tina, I am in tears for the death of Ajay. I wrote him last week about his health although I have not blogged for some days now but at times I do read some post and comments. When I read your comment, I was moved to come to your blog to really find out which Ajay you commented about. I happened to be a friend and one of his followers in his blogs. I am so sad about his death despite the fact that I have never met him, but through his writings he has touched lives and he will be remembered for all he has done. Take heart Tina. I pray that God should give the family, friends and wellwishers the fortitude to bear the loss. May his gentle soul rest in peace

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    • Ajay was a great man with a gentle spirit, as is evidenced by all the friends here who loved him dearly. My heart is sick and my soul deeply wounded but I know he is in paradise and that gives me hope. Thank you so much for your kind words. Blessing upon you.

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      • Same to you my sister. I am highly touched with his death. When he replied me in my first email to him, despite the fact that we were not together but I could feel the pains in his writing due to the hard drugs he was taking. My heart is bitter. Thank you so much for bringing the news. Without somebody that knows him physically it would have been very difficult to know what has happened to him. Stay bless and may the Lord guard and protect you and yours in the name of Jesus Christ.

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  3. Reblogged this on osarobohenry and commented:
    Friends, AJAYTAO is dead. What a man that will never be forgotten for what God has placed in him. May your gentle soul rest in peace my friend, Ajay. We love you but the Lord love you most. May the Lord give the family, friends and wellwishers you left behind the fortitude to bear the loss. (RIP AJAYTAO)

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    • Yes, Ajay was very ill for a long time but was living bravely and with serenity with the after effects of the harsh cancer treatment. His heart was damaged by the treatment and this is what eventually claimed our beloved friend. Please pray for his lovely mother as well, for this is the third child she has had to say goodbye too. My heart breaks for her as well. Ajay will live on in our hearts and memories. Abundant blessings upon you and yours.

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  4. One of my earliest supporters who became my strength. He was genuinely caring, boosting people to go on. He gave me the Inner Peace award when I needed it the most, when my father was in the hospital with a grave illness. That was my saving grace!
    I never thought he would be leaving soon: he invited me to follow his new blog. I did.
    I am very sorry for his passing. I am sure he achieved the blissful peace he so well deserved.
    So long Ajay. You will always live in our hearts.
    belsbror

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  5. What a beautiful tribute to a very lovely man who touched so many hearts with his gentle words and the wonderful things he shared. Like so many others here, I will miss his quiet gentle way and the beauty that he saw in the world though the photos, poetry and quotes he shared with us all, RIP sweet man.

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  6. Ajaytao – a great man indeed. I liked everything he did – his poems, his photos, everything. He impressed me with his zest for living and the way he could find beauty in everything about life. He spread his love for us all across the miles, even when many of us had never met him. He was able to bring a smile on so many faces simply by his words, as much through his posts as by his sweet, gentle and loving comments of encouragement and thanks. I remember when I commented on the post telling about his ill health; I wished him good health and a speedy recovery. I never expected that to be the last time we communicated.
    Now I can only say that he will be well remembered and missed.
    May you all find solace.
    RIP Ajay.

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    • Thank you for your kind words sir. I find myself missing him desperately as each day expires. Ajay was the greatest most loving man I have ever had the privilege of knowing. His beautiful soul is surely resting in peace, for he brought peace and love to so many. Blessings and comfort to you sir.

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  7. What a moving tribute. My sincerest condolences to you, to his mother, to everyone he touched. I was a follower of his blog, and could always feel his kind soul. He will be missed by many, and he has touched many. May his legacy he leaves be of some comfort to you.

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    • The greatest among us seem to have been gifted to us for the briefest of moments. Yet, those moments are so powerful that we are changed forevermore. Ajay changed everyone he met because he loved us all fully and without judgement. He was a beautiful soul who healed my brokenness and he is now a part of me, of all of us forever. Thank you for your kind words. We mourn his passing but celebrate his wonderful life.

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  8. Dear Tina, I wish for your peace as you struggle through these excruciating times. You were fortunate to have loved such a kind and gentle man, and I hope the sweet times you had together will carry you through this painful sorrow.

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    • Dearest Jet,

      Thank you so much for your kind words. Ajay was a rare man and I am beyond blessed by knowing him and finding love with him. He was extraordinary and I am so thankful to have him in my life regardless of the brevity. I will pay the cost of new scars upon my heart and soul to have memories made in bliss. May God Bless you richly upon your travels.

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  9. Tina, I’ve just knew this sad news from one of our blogger friend, gpcox. May I convey my deepest sympathies on your loss and May the comfort of God had helped him on his departure and the gate of heaven opened up for him.

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    • Thank you so much for your kindness. Ajay was a wonderful man and I am certain he is enjoying paradise now. God blessed me richly by allowing he and I to meet and then to love one another. I could not have asked for a more loving, kind man than Ajay. May God’s blessings rain down upon you.

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    • His love for his friends is still working as I am meeting wonderful people with beautiful hearts through this very sad parting of our dear friend. I feel he is still looking out for us as his love and compassion continues to spread throughout the blog world. In life, he was remarkable and in death, he continues to amaze me. Blessing upon you.

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  10. The news of his death took my breath away! Ajay guided me to find my innermost courage and strength. I will forever treasure all of our conversations and hold them close to my heart. Until we meet again . . .

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  11. Yes, as it did mine. When his brother answered Ajay’s phone and I heard all the people in the background I knew the words he was going to utter before he spoke them. I do not know how long I sobbed, for time stopped at that moment. He was so giving to everyone of his time, compassion, and wisdom but extremely humble about it. He recommended I take a peek at your blog, which is how I came to find you, my friend. I have much to be grateful to Ajay for and I cannot wait to see him in paradise.

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  12. Hi Tina, What a lovely tribute to a man who clearly touched many people. I did not know Ajay well, but loved his words and photos. Thank you for sharing your love and carrying on his loving spirit. I hope you find comfort in all the love shown here for both of you. blessings, Brad

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    • Hello,

      Your comment went into my spam folder so I hope it is not an attempt for advertising. However, if you are sincere in your comments then I greatly appreciate them. I am sorry, I do not know of any support groups for grief but I am certain they are out there. In this age of online communities, there are certainly several grief support groups. There are support groups for everything these days, which is good because people in pain can connect and offer one another a compassionate “ear” and soft “shoulder” to help deal with life’s challenges. I do not join such support groups as I have many avenues of emotional and spiritual support. Thank you for your interest in my blog. I pray that you find some comfort and solace within my words. Blessings upon you.

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